august 14th,2005

guys, i got to do this quick. finally it comes to the end. i got to leave this place. i got to move on in life. the whole group wre going to washington d.c for a 5 days conference and on the 20th,the program ends, leaving us on our own. i personally will go to new york and los angeles. i have to say, it feels really hurt when you already like the place, manage to adapt to the envrinment, get close with the people, and make friends, and now, before you know or realize, its time for yo to leave. this is not the forst time i got to face this kind of situation, but this is the time where it really..really gets into me. i took 3 days to pack my stuffs, i couldn't believe that i got to pack now and go. it feels like yesterday rakin and me arrived here with lots of hope. it feels like i still got a lot of things to do here. it really feels like i am just a part of people overhere. there will be no more downtown explorers, there will no more sharades in the square, there will be no more 6 hours sitting in the mudhouse, there will no more kendo in the middle of the square, there will no more cool old guy playing guitars, singing country, there will be no more, the chance where i can climb on the wall, get the screen up, and play outdoor movies, no more...no more...

this place, thought me a lot about life, where people be people, where i learn to be truth and fair to myself, the place where i learn to accept rejection..

i hate this, i hate the feeling that i am feeling now.

be brave, imran, be strong, imran...holdon tight...

i hae no more guts to write...