this may sound a little complicated for you, but i just wanna write it anyway.

in life, there are stages where you sometimes feel so confused about yourself, who you are, what are you doing, why are doing, the thing that you are doing, do you believe that you are doing the right thing, and how long do you think you are able to do the thing you are doing, when it seems the outcome is gonna be nothing? i guess, that's what i'm feeling now, i guess it is a little more complicated, but i just don't know how else shall i put it in words..

there are times, when you feel so down, when you feel like you got nothing out of all the hardwork you do, but you still wanna do it, hoping that it will someday turns good and make your day. but hope is one thing that has hurt a lot of people, hope has also cheered up zillions of people...

shall i stay on the line, go thru it, and rely on hope? how if, by staying in the line would make things worse? is it worth to gamble, taking all the risks, swallowing all the pain?

i just haven't decide on anything yet, maybe i am just too scared to make any decision yet...

life is great...